Want to know who TRIED to STEAL my confidence and happiness? Keep reading you won’t believe it!!!!
I was at Forever 21 looking for new pieces and I found the most adorable matching skirt and top set! To top it off it was tropical print! It was a crop top and high waisted maxi skirt and the skirt had a high slit. I didn’t want to try it on because I didn’t have time and mostly because I loved the outfit and wasn’t ready to see it on and hate it.
BOOM!!! Did you catch that? I was already telling myself I wasn’t going to like the outfit. Not good. It took me almost 3 weeks to try the outfit on and take the tags off!!!!WTF! I was in love with this outfit and planning the shoot before I even left the store so why was I so scared of this clothing!?!?!?
It fit, that day.
One thing I need to learn is I’m NOT my 21 year old self anymore. Therefore size SMALL will not always be the right size for me. A lot has changed and mainly my body. I am a mom, so being pregnant and nursing took its toll and I am older so my crazy fast metabolism has certainly gotten a little lazy. Life is crazy being a mom to two tots and maintaining a full time job at home. If you can imagine at the end of the day I would rather curl up with a glass of wine and a few Mindy Project reruns than go to the gym. There is that.
DAY OF SHOOT! I am so excited because we were shooting at the Sugar & Cloth Color Wall in Houston! Unfortunately that was short lived and everything went down hill when I was savagely trying to fit in this outfit that fit just 2 weeks earlier!!! I got it on but hated it! Why????? because I was allowing myself to think that because this size small not fitting perfectly meant that I was not good enough. NOT TRUE! For 5 min I quietly thought about how I was going to take these photos while feeling so uncomfortable. And then it happened. Okay Life I see. I see that I am not forever 21. I see that I have a different body and I will continue to have a different one as life goes on. I see that this little outfit and my own unconfident thoughts will not take my happiness. I had to change my attitude about it and realize that I am healthy and do care for myself but maybe I could focus on me a little more or I just need to get a damn size medium next time!
I just want you to know I think you are beautiful no matter what! YOUR CLOTHES SIZE DOES NOT DEFINE YOU AND IT CERTAINLY CANNOT STEAL YOUR HAPPINESS!!
I got over it and had a blast. But be carful with that high slit on the skirt. I am pretty sure I flashed a few people. lol
Because this outfit is so darn cute it has been selling out. So keep checking the Forever 21 website for their restocked items!